down tonight.

Dear God

I am tired of crying myself to sleep. I feel pulled by work and home. Something has got to give.

I’m sick. Everyone at work is sick and since I am their supervisor if they can’t work I have to.

I don’t want to have to force my work smile, I want it to be a real genuine smile; an expression of real feelings.

I  want to slip into an alternate reality. One where I like my job, my daughter’s mind is whole, and I can feel hope.

Now I  lay me down to sleep, I pray for hope to keep.



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teri again

I like a glass of wine or a shot of Irish whiskey once in a while. I love to dance. I do genealogy for fun and profit. I enjoy history. I collect elephants. I am a Christian. My children are my biggest priority. I love music it's a varied taste. I want to visit Alaska and Ireland. Living in Oregon is my goal. I love the books: The hobbit and The Lord of the rings.

21 thoughts on “down tonight.”

  1. Dealing with some of these same feelings. Sending hugs. Hope you know you are not alone. The struggle is real. Many don’t understand but take heart that some of us do. Hugs 🌷

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  2. Teri, IRB is right. Many people don’t understand the struggle, but some of us do. Hope you are feeling better and continue in good health. Spring is beautiful here in my part of the country. I hope it’s beautiful where you are as well. Hugs!

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  3. The friends and their supportive words may warm your heart and hoping your health improves. I am just going to say you are in my thoughts tonight and evening prayers. Hugs, Robin


  4. Things better? I’m getting ready to disappear for a while myself. I’m going to step out on foot and find myself 100 miles away. Then I’ll probably bum someone’s shower and try to sleep through their partying (yeah, I have a particular drunk in mind). Probably take a bus back home after a few months.


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